Saturday, October 24, 2009

When Are You Gonna Just Fuck Me Raw? Pt. 3

I appreciate everyone's public and private comments. I took a lot of heat from prople about my post about fucking D raw. It probably was for the most part deserved. I spent several days after hooking-up with D trying to figure out what the next step should be. It didn't help that I got a running stream of text messages from D begging me to come fuck him.

I posted that I was in love with cherryboi most of the time. That was true. cherryboi and I were at the National Equality March on Sunday, October 11, 2009. He went back to work and the next time I heard from him was on the following Friday. It was after 9:30PM by the time he got to my place. It was nasty and rainy. cherryboi came into the kitchen and I remember now that he was wearing a jacket that he never removed. Before I could break the good news to him that I had fucked D raw and broke my promise or offer him something to eat, he announced that we needed to have a talk. To cut to the chase, he broke up with me. "I have needed to break up with you for a while.....", he told me. I am not going to blog about all the pesky details. He handled it very maturely. He told me that he will always care for me. He gave me a quick kiss and laided my house key on the counter and was out the front door before I could take a deep breathe. He still doesn't know that I that I fucked D raw. It is over. I am sure that all of you will think I got what I deserved and you all may be right. As I write this post, I don't really fully understand why cherryboi broke up with me. This has been painful.

So, no sex lately to blog about because I haven't been motivated to reach out for it. I am going to set about picking up and moving on.

14 comments:

Anonymous said...

Dude, I'm so sorry CB broke up with you. That really sucks. But hang in there, you'll get over it. And man, don't listen to the haters who are coming down on you for fucking D raw -- he wanted it, you wanted it: it's all good. And P.S. for all us readers it's also REALLY HOT! Keep it up, and follow your heart! -Fellow blogger

Chicago Fella said...

That sucks. I discovered your blog a few weeks ago, and I've enjoyed it. You remind me a lot of myself; we're the same age, both living in big cities with lots of fun fellows and lots of crazy flakes, and both of us have a ravenous appetite for naked fun.

You've probably considered this, but I think you have a possiblity for something real with D. His wanting you to fuck him raw may have as much to do with wanting to establish that final connection with you as anything.

This hurts, I know, I've been through it, but chin up--the sun will come out again.

Anonymous said...

Sorry about the breakup. If you need a rebound fuck, I'm in your hood...

David said...

hey buddy, when you're ready, i hope you'll tell us why cherryboi broke up with you. we've all been following it for a while. i think most of us really loved you and cherryboi together. let us know. thanks and hope you feel better.

Anonymous said...

Is it possible he knows about your blog and read about D? Could explain a lot ...

Young and said...

Your life is just that - your life. And the fact that CB broke up with you and you're feeling emotions about it is normal and real. A lot of people want you to be some sex demigod (which, you are...), but there's always a real person with real emotion behind it. If anything, this makes me like ya more.

CB may have freaked because of the intensity of what you shared - which from what little you shared here about his commentary seems somewhat likely.

Be true to yourself, the rest will sort itself out.

Namaste, man. :)

Anonymous said...

I won't say that you deserved what's happened. This much I do know: Cherryboi deserved to know the truth about your fucking around with other guys so that he could make an informed choice about whether or not he wanted to be in a relationship with you where you weren't willing to be exclusive.

On the other hand, you deserved to know in advance of having CB's announcement that he was breaking up with you that he was struggling in the relationship so that you both could see if you could make adjustments to make things work. There's every chance things still wouldn't have worked out, but this out-of-the-blue sort of break up isn't a considerate way of doing things either.

So I'm sorry that you're hurting over the break up. But you had ~2 years of what sounded like a pretty good thing, which is something to be thankful for. Maybe at some point, if you can do it in an non-acrimonious way, you can sit down with CB and have a conversation about what happened to bring some closure.

Anonymous said...

You were a jerk to him and sneaked around behind his back while he clearly loved you. You deserved to be dumped and to suffer. Good.

Anonymous said...

You don't "deserve" it. I think you were already feeling the disconnect with CherryBoi, and that's why you decided to go raw with the new the new guy. So don't be too hard on yourself!
- NYC boy

Loadseeker said...

The romantic side of me really is sorry that you and CB have broken up.
But I think you strongly hinted that this was inevitable from your earliest posts about you and CB.
Anyway, you are handling it like the mature guy that you are.
Yeah, it's painful, but life goes on. And you've got a lot more good days ahead that will help to erase that rainy Friday night.
I'm glad for you that CB had the good sense to tell you face to face.
It speaks well for both of you. No need to share the "pesky details" with us.

Seminal Experiences said...

Boys cum and go, but you're right to keep fuckin' em raw, stud.

Thirty3 Naked Laydies said...

Babes, so sorry to hear about CB. We know that this sounds sooo cold and callous, but this too shall pass. You're a great guy. Remember that.

Anonymous said...

You know, the fact that he said he needed to do it for a while in the context of your previous posts really makes it pretty obvious to me. CB continued to want monogamy and commitment, he was hoping that was something you would eventually give him, and he stayed around long enough to know that it wasn't going to happen, then moved on.

The Average Joe said...

It was CB's first relationship with a guy, im pretty sure that factored into it. I'm sorry to hear about it--hope you feel better soon. Also, you guys were on different trajectories, I think that makes a difference